God Why Am I Alone?
“ Silence, Solitude, and Loniless. Silence in a world full of complete chaos and noise. Yet, you hear nothing, lack of connection, control, ideas, loss of friends, family, and seemingly even God. Our heart is crying out, Where are you God, and why can’t I hear you?”
EVERYBODY STAY CALM, STAY CALM BECASUE GUESS WHAT? We’re ALIVE, and It’s a brand new day and YEAR waiting for you to make your mark on it. So, go look in your mirror and smile at yourself because you’re here for a reason, purposed from God not by chance or coincidence. So, let’s talk!
Series Alert!!! Yes, you read that right, we are starting a series that I believe is a silent killer to some Christians. Our series will be be called…(drum roll please) “ GOD WHY AM I… ?” So let’s get this show on the road.
Part 1: GOD WHY AM I ALONE? ( The Season of loneliness)
Psalms 25:16-18 KJV says,” Turn thee unto me, and have mercy upon me ; For I am desolate and afflicted. The troubles of my heart are enlarged: O bring thou me out of my distress. Look upon mine affliction and my pain; And forgive all my sins.”
“The Season of Silence”
At some point one way or another we all are going to experience this season of loneliness and heartache. This as a true Christian will be a trial that will be placed in your life by God. Here at B.U. transparency is key to sharing any life difficulty. Error from one’s mistakes is meant to be shared for the betterment for all. So here is some “RTK” (REAL TALK)! To be honest with you all, I am currently going through the silent killer or the season of silence right now. The quietness, the distance from everyone all around, the loss of friends, praying to God and not understanding why. While even wondering why can’t I hear anything, questioning God if He’s even listening. The confusion I carry, as I look to Him and wonder why is this happening? God, I thought they were my friends, why have they deserted me? Why are you taking me through this, what are you trying to teach me. Lastly, God I need you right now more than ever, where are you?
Alright timeout, all my purpose chaser come to the sidelines for a second. We need to break something down before we go any further. “The Silent Killer” Now, let’s discuss this and explain why I called the season of silence this reference. The Silent Killer, is the effect of a person being withdrawn from everyone and everything. The lack of connection to life and the deterioration of self worth. The preconception of all hopes is lost and allowing the devil to portray that no one understands. Which leads to spirally depression, causing negative habits such lost of interest and relationships, mental and physical body pain, cutting, anger issues, lack of emotion and suicidal thoughts and extreme cases suicide itself .These oppositions creeping inside you, starting with your thoughts and slowly internally and externally, turning you into a person you never dreamed to become. The Silent Killer.
Now back to reality , being alone is a feeling no one wants to feel, the changes and cold distancing from one’s surrounding you is frankly undesirable. And before my introverts come in and say, “ Oh Zippy, I like being alone, people are annoying. I rather be by myself anyway, hashtag loner. Now, I’m not gonna lie, we can all agree people can get under our skin including ourselves sometimes. Yeah I said it, you’re probably annoying to one of your friends at some time or another. However, you may like being “alone” for peace and quietness but this is a different kind of loneliness. So let’s stop the façade and lets be real for a moment. The loneliness that I’m referring to is, no matter where you turn it feels if no one is there. Here we are praying to God about being in a place of desolation, getting frustrated because you’re serving Him, treating individuals right, constantly taking toxic personalities and spiraling problems from others, while having the right attitude in the midst of it. But yet, as we're crying out to God it feels like God has abandoned us too. Now, at this point each of us are like Joseph in the Bible. In a predicament we didn’t necessarily deserve to be in. Joseph was stripped of his coat of many colors given by his father( Genesis 37:1-4), hated by his brothers who him sold into slavery( Genesis 37:17-28) became a servant for Potipher, who was Pharaoh’s captain of guard in Egypt, and later on was lied on by Potipher’s wife hence throwing Joseph into prison (Genesis 39:1-20). I’m quite positive, Joseph felt loneliness at several points in his life. Yet catch this, Joseph trusted God regardless of what he place he was in. A better question to ask ourselves is are we fully trusting in God, are we walking in the purpose He has for us. As Christians, we may go forth doing miraculous measures for God, but was that what He wanted for you? We are like Joseph, our jobs are uncertain, we didn’t get the raise we deserved. People who were our friends since day one are now acting as though we’re strangers. To top it all off, our family whose supposed to be there for us are the main one’s waiting for our fall.
Yet Joseph understood through it ALL, God was still with him. In Genesis 39:21 it says,” But the LORD was with Joseph, and shewed him mercy, and gave him favor in the sight of the keeper of the prison.” Joseph was in his lowest, but God still showed favor. God saw the faith and hope Joseph had throughout his various tasking trials. The hope allowing Joseph to live on daily. To sum it up, being a Christians isn’t always fun and exciting.
In the Bible, king David speaks on being a king and he says to God, “ You make it HARD to be a king.” At some point in all of your crazy, busy, lives I encourage us all to study out the lives of Joseph , David, and Moses. These three men went through devastations and loneliness yet remained faithful to God. The temptations and various stumbling blocks Satan throws our way, makes it HARD to be a Christian. However, we weren’t promise a walk in the park life. 2 Timothy 3:12 says, “ Yea, and all that will live godly in Christ Jesus shall suffer persecution.” Or better yet, John 15:18 says, “If the world hate you, ye know that it hated me before it hated you.” In today’s terms he said, “ So you want to be a Christian right, you want to love and serve me, being a humble servant and committing to the purpose I destined for you? Okay then, Trust me Me.” If this is our choice, Jesus will love us eternally and help us get through it all, which includes some lonely seasons in our lives. Our world turning upside down, feeling as though we can’t carry on but remembering we have a God who is present.
In the while, there’s a thing called HOPE. I too have hope, as I pursue on day to day while in my silent season. Isaiah 40:31 says, “But they that wait up the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.” The same hope Joseph had lies within us, we simply need to grab it. The hope that allows mankind to surpass through the current lack thereof. The power of hope from God enabling us to wake up everyday to go to work or school while doing it with a spirit of excellence (Romans 15:13). God delights in the ones who place their hope in HIM (Psalm 147:11). These are the individuals who receive favor from God, for they trusted through the uncertain( 2 Corinthians 4:18). God understands, relinquish every hold you have and give it to Him. Fully submerge yourself in Him, trusting Him completely. Cease your worries God is always here, don’t think for a second God doesn’t understand your loneliness. Luke 5:16, talks about how “ He withdrew himself into the wilderness and prayed.” Jesus put himself in solitude, being in an earthly body Jesus received the same temptations and frustrations that we are presented in life. And let’s be real, Jesus didn’t want to leave and be in loneliness, He never desire to be “ all alone” like people claim they want to be so bad. During His time in the wilderness, He was even tempted by the devil by himself (Matthew 4:1-11). As human, we would never purposely put ourselves in insolation the way Jesus did, along with being tempted by the DEVIL, without God in that situation we would have failed tremendously.
I get it, I know it sucks and you wish you can get out of it as of right now. But let me share a little enlightenment your way. SIT IN IT. That’s right, get comfortable, go get a pillow, some popcorn and SIT IN IT.
For the Christians, who haven’t learned to be content with being alone. God is teaching you how to be okay with yourself and the silence from everyone else to hear from Him (James 5:7-8). If you are doing everything God asked that’s great, understand is in this season God is pushing you to grow to a higher level. He is shifting all the negative factors out your life to prune you to be ready for that breakthrough you’ve been looking for. The moment when you’re okay with being alone He will show you. Now, it doesn’t mean you’re coming out of this season instantly, but rather sitting just a little while longer to see if are going trust HIM along with fully weeding away all the unwanted distractions, that will hinder you and potentially ruined everything God built inside of you. Which means the friends, social media followings, extended family, love interest, and that subconscious plan you mapped out for your life, understand that everyone is not going with you to new destination. Most of social media is fake, not all your family members are going to be supportive, your love interest if truly interested in you will understand they come second after God. Lastly, that life list that you made up in your head, go ahead and tear it up homie because that list means absolutely nothing if there’s no sign, sealed, delivered consent on it from God. The ones who are willing to wait, are the ones who are rewarded. He knows, He understands, He’s there, He hears your cries, simply trust in Him have HOPE. Moses: the meekest man on earth, David: A man after God’s own heart, Joseph: trusting God when life went every way but his way. Three men, three traumatic experiences, three lives filled with seasons of loneliness, three men trusting in God, three men having hope, three men outstandingly recognized by God. This is only three men, imagine all the people that have come, gone, living now, and ones to come who are like these three men, oh what an impact for the Gospel it would cause. We all experience it but how will we handle it? Hebrews 13:5 “ I will never leave you nor forsake you.”
Simply some thoughts to consider when you’re in this season and asking Him, “ God Why Am I Alone?”
We’re called to make a difference, so go out and do amazing things.
Simply B.U.
