Jesus Take the Wheel.

{ New Day. New Beginnings. New Mindset. New Focus. New Start. New Intentions. New Results.”}

Can I purpose a question to yah? Here it is…

Who’s hands are on the wheel? We all know that statement, “ Jesus take the wheel!” For the most part we use this statement as a joke. However, in this case I want to bring it forth in a different light. Who’s holding the controls of your life? The journey of life itself is super messy. Life will swerve you around in different directions and eventually dump you out of the car and leave you in the dust. Like in some movies you are now standing in the crossroads, looking in all four directions, unsure where to turn because there's nothing in sight. Sadly, due to man sinning , this is each of our reality. All the catastrophic and deceptions of life taught us how to how to drive, get a license, and so call allow you to “ think” you have complete control in it. Yet, look at us now stuck, bruised, and alone. The desires of our worldly pressures have unfolded and now has shown its true unhinging form. The constant reminders of past traumatic experiences replaying within your mind. Hence creating mental illness such as anxiety, depression, weight loss, lack of appetite, insomnia, and more. Daily, we are carrying the weight and burdens of shame and insecurity that sometimes don’t even belong to us. Yet rather individuals who used us to project their hurt, so they don’t have to face their reality. For instance, their are tons of people who struggle with trust and commitment due to the lack of hope, support, and most importantly love as a child from their parents/guardians. Each persons collected time within all the abusive homes have created adults, who are running away from their problems thinking this can be their escape door from their troubles. Yet if we take a sec back and evaluate our lives we notice that more time has past, and we as people are still carrying the unpacked baggage we’ve been carrying since our adolescence age. The guilt of not being what your parents wanted, the embarrassment of an failed marriage, the insecurities battling within from past and present shady comments, are all playing factors in many people’s crumbling lives.

In 1 Peter 5:7 it says, “Casting all your care upon him; for He careth for you.” This toxic cycle of generational curses getting passed down generation to generation, and if not careful your children are going to reaping the same hurt, you once received from your parents. However, what we fail to realize is you don’t have to be what your father or mother was. So what what you family is known for alcoholism, drugs, cheating, or mentally/physically abusive, it does mean you have to be that way. You can be the change, stop the generational curse with you, don’t allow it go any further. I understand it feels like you are never the chosen one? Always the last pick in everyone’s life. The outcast, runt, loser, all your life this is what you heard from supposedly loved ones or peers. Still in the same job position when you first started, only to see colleges soaring past you. Making more money, taking all the vacations, having all the newest accessories with less work experience. Then there is you, just surviving life, your head is barely above the water. There you are standing at the crossroads with all your planned aspirations in your hand. Feeling like a failure, for not completing any of them. You allowed life to take the wheel and it lead you to a disaster.

But wait! There is a way to gain back control, but it requires one thing, which is called surrenderance. Matthew 16:24 says, ”Then said Jesus unto his disciples, If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow me.”

Whether you know it or not God is in control of everything and He has planned out your life before you were yet even conceived. However, the beauty of God is this, He gives us a CHOICE! Every man that has walked this Earth has a choice, which is the reason why you have the hurt because MAN chose to treat you that way not God, but MAN. In Jeremiah 17:9 it states," The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it?” For starters, I’m sorry man hurt you, but understand it was never God, but rather the choice God gave to man due Him wanting genuine fellowship with us not robots but free will. He has plans for your life and you also have plans for your life but who are you allowing to take the wheel of your life? Are you allowing God or yourself, because even if we want to pursue what God has for us there’s a thing we have to have, and that is called patience. The phrase “ Patience is key” is very vital in allowing God to fulfill the plans and purpose designed for your life. Like Matthew 16:24 stated we have to deny ourselves of the past and pleasures that we once used, to get the high to escape the reality. Yet God cannot use you to your full potential unless you are willing to lay all the weight of life down. The steering wheel you’ve been holding so tightly due to you being afraid has to given to God. For He is the one that can take the guilt and shame to everlasting love and complete understanding of who you are. “Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct thy paths.” Proverbs 3:5-6

Trusting and having patience in God is like ordering off of Amazon. We expect our order to be here in 4-7 days, and in that time span we are okay because we “expect” our package to arrive in the given time Amazon said. Well what begins to happen when it’s been 10 plus days and it still hasn’t come? At this point we are ticked because our package is not here yet, and we are doing everything but having patience at this point (the lack of control we have over the situation). But the same idea is with God with our lives, God is not going to tell you when it’s going happen. He simply wants you to take the step forward of FAITH to see if are truly willing to be led into His purpose. In some people’s mind, the questions could be purpose “Why wait on God? What’s the purpose if I can do it now? Couldn’t I wait until later in to be in God’s will? Let me just try to gain control one last time, it wont make a difference right?”

This method of thinking will only revert you back t in the position of abandonment you once were in. A person will never fully gain all what God has for them if they are not willing to surrender their all and trust in God. Man’s comprehension is so minute compared to the Almighty One’s unethical vast knowledge. Everything has a time, place and purpose! What you have experienced in life was not simply be accident but rather growth. Our lives are like stories, and story are meant to be shared, tell your story. There are people you will meet in your life in certain seasons that will have a very similar situations as you and will need you to help them go through it. Allow God to mold you into the person you ought to be, so if an individual enters your life with the same issue you can be the change within their life. To show the love of God, and end the generational curses. Yet the choice begins with you right here, right now in your life. The real tragedy in a story is if you resist the help of God and continue to “ drive” through life recklessly. Which in due to time will lead to you crashing and being unable to recover.

“ Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you:  For every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened.” Matthew 7: 7-8

Jesus made the ultimate sacrifice for you by dying on the cross for your sins for you to be saved in the salvation of our Heavenly Father. God will never force you, the choice is always yours. The only question left is, Who’s has the Wheel?

Okie Dokie, THE END.

Love you all and have an awe-inspiring week

We were all called to make a difference, so go out and do amazing things!

God Why Am I Here?

The Dicussion of Suicides and Self-Harm.

“ Mirror Mirror on the wall, who’s the fairest of them all? Sadly not me, has it ever been me? As I look into the mirror all I see is bleak. I see a reflection in front of me, but I can’t even depict if that’s even me. I look around to anyone for me to reach, but life has shown me that I’m not worthy to keep. I feel as though my life has come to its peak. So, I’ll just simply close my eyes and forever sleep. But wait, is this really all? God didn’t make me to only fall. Who am I, and why am I here? God, show me and make it clear. For I don’t know how much longer I can last here. Be my strength, my guide, my all in all.

*Hello, Lovelies, how are you all doing? Good, that’s great, keep it that way. And if it’s going bad, well let’s find a way to fix it so we can live out our best lives! For mankind was not created for anything less than but rather greatness! Anywhoooo, let’s jump in this thing.

“God Why Am I Here?” ( Suicides and Self-harm)

Deuteronomy 30:19-20 KJV

“ I call heaven and earth to record this day against you, that I have set before you life and death, blessing and cursing: therefore choose life, that both thou and thy seed may live: that thou mayest love the Lord thy God, and that thou mayest obey his obey his voice, and that thou mayest cleave unto him: for he is thy life, and the length of thy days: that thou mayest dwell in the land which the LORD sware unto thy fathers, to Abraham, to Isaac, and to Jacob, to give them.”

Suicides and Self Harm. As a world we have become slightly numb to the thought of someone committing suicides and self harm or participating in it themselves . The idea of the two have become a norm within people’s daily lives. What, how, and why are people dying daily to escape a life that has caused them nothing but pain. Where was the help, the family, the friends, where was anyone when that individual needed someone in their last moments? Globally, more than 800,000 people die to suicides every year, every 11 minutes there is 1 death occurring. In adults and children 12 million people have serious thoughts of suicide, 3.5 million made plans for suicide, and 1.4 million attempted suicide. This is a major issue which needs to be discussed in each of our homes, and amongst family and friends. For there is no specific look, race, gender, job status, number of degrees that will exclude or admit a person to or from suicides. Many times it’s the individuals we least expect. It’s time for a change!

Let’s talk real for a moment. Are you just done with life? Tired of how it’s treating you? People seem to just not care about you and nothing you do is ever right? Are you in a verbal, physical, or mental abusive environment or state? Past traumas keep haunting you, not being able to even go to sleep without your mind constantly on replay on the things you’re running away from. Are you being bullied or harassed at school or in the workplace? Too fat, too skinny, too dark, too pale, too ugly, too slow, too proper or simply just different? These are all the playing cards of the start of suicidal thoughts. “ God why am I not loved, why doesn’t anyone seem to care about me? Life has literally chewed me up and spit me out and is laughing at the failure that I am. Am I even worthy enough of being here? I’m tired, and if I’m being honest, if push comes to shove one more time I’m just going to end it all. Making it all go away, molding my existence into just a memory. Being forgotten, even though it feels like I’m already forgotten. God, why am I here? You placed me here and yet for what? I feel utterly useless.”

Hanging, drug overdose, drowning, firearms, jumping from great heights, immolation, stabbing, carbon monoxide poisoning, suffocating, alcohol are simply different forms individuals use to commit suicide.

Thoughts. Actions. Product. This is the order we take in doing anything. The mind can be a dangerous place. The voices inside the mind drags you to a deep dark abyss that no one would dare enter. Once thoughts are pondered on too long, actions begin to occur. Anyone familiar with their trusty friend the blade? The silver sharp friend that numbs the pain. Wrist, arms, legs, and stomach, cutting to take you away from all the reminders of your falling world. Many of us as children were abused by parents, molested by family members or outside adults, degraded for our mental state, body appearance or complexion. As children we witnessed the favoritism between yourself and your siblings, or your mom and dad being the best parents to your siblings that you wish you had. Now as adults, all we know most is being broken and mistreated. So in turn, many indulge in alcoholism, drugs, or self harm because the minor pain from the cutting or other addictions takes our mind from the overwhelming pain we experience in life daily lives. We begin to think inside how much more can I take? Does anybody notice? Oh of course not, the weight loss or gain, the long sleeves shirts/hoodies you wear during all seasons, the lack of observation from others of your diminishing personality, the slight jumps when anyone approaches you, the negative comments you give about yourself, or the sudden changes in appearance simply to see if anyone will notice your cry for help. Yet who would ever know? The voices in your mind keep telling you that no one cares about me, nobody seems to care about me. So why should I care? Harmful thoughts plus actions equals self-harm or worse suicide.

Now, I know I’m getting really deep, and probably making some of you uncomfortable. However, that’s the problem, too many Christians in the church have made all of us so comfortable, and want to make so many topics taboo and politically correct. The fact of the matter is many Christians lack the resources to help others or notice the small indicators of an individual going through suicidal thoughts. Instead of doing the research to better our knowledge to educate others and reaching the mark in this tragic issue: many Christians do want they do best, sweeping other topic under the rug. Creating this illusion that what’s happening isn’t really real, simply a figment of their imagination and what some Christians fail to realize is this approach is pushing the saved and unsaved away. Proclaiming that you’ll pray for them, but won’t call, text, or give your time to be there for them. Daily people are coming with open arms with their life-threatening issues and the church is making their problems irrelevant. When in reality, there problems are very real. People who are battling with suicidal thoughts and self-harm are going through life walking on eggshells. Already broken and cracked and with the slightest pressure their whole sanity crumbles into pieces. The burdens of panic, shame and grief, overload of constant responsibility from all sides, tolerating toxic relationships knowing its wrong but can’t find a way out. Yet several churches only want to rise from the sidelines and feel sorrowful when a tragedy happens. But by that point it is too late, once again another potential, impactful soul lost. This. Must. Stop. Real conversation brings discomfort. Depression and anxiety are two big tornadoes that bring forth a world wind of emotions.

To the people who are battling with suicidal thoughts and self-harm first things first; the most important thing you could ever know is this. My dears, you all are loved. In 1John 4:9-10 it states, “9 In this was manifested the love of God toward us, because that God sent his only begotten Son into the world, that we might live through him.10 Herein is love, not that we loved God, but that he loved us, and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins.” God our Heavenly Father sent his ONLY SON ( Jesus) to die for the entire world ( John 3:16), because He loved each of us that much. I know it doesn’t feel like it, but I’m not referring to the world and earthly acceptance and desires. But rather a spiritual oneness with an agape love that no one can take away from you(1 John 3:1). God’s love is so euphoric and fulfilling in any dark place. The first step to coming out of suicidal thoughts and self-harm is salvation. I strongly encourage each of you to check out B.U.’s podcast Who Am I? ( Salvation) to get a clear vision about God’s love and the sacrifice He made for you. Once salvation, get a Bible or download the Bible app and simply start with understanding the love God has for you. ( Bible verses such as Philippians 4:6-7, Isaiah 41:10, Matthew 11:28-30, Psalms 139:4, Jeremiah 17:14, 1 Peter 5: 6-7, and Psalm 94:18-19 are starters on your new walk with Christ). Like anything in life, this will take time, it will not be an overnight change. However, with God, He will slowly bring you out of your current state to recovery. Find each day one thing about yourself you like, regardless of what the haters have said, but what God has said and thank Him for it! For in order to want love from anyone else, one must first love themself.

If you are thinking about committing suicide or inflicting harm be honest with yourself. Do you honestly think what you are doing now or plan to do is truly the answer? The pain you inflict on yourself may drift away for a while but each time the void and emptiness will hit you harder as you continue to avoid it. The failed attempt wasn't a failure but a second chance to choose Jesus. He doesn’t want you on the run, you’re not some criminal who has to flee from their adversity. You may be asking why am I here? Simple, it’s because God placed you here, He doesn’t view you as worthless, but loved, worthy, and important. Colossians 3:12 says, “ Put on therefore, as the elect of God, holy and beloved, bowels of mercies, kindness, humbleness of mind, meekness, longsuffering.” Replace the self-harm with God’s love, use positive affirmations to build yourself back up. Ask God to guide you to what He has for your life and speak them into existence. Whether you know it or not WORDS ARE POWERFUL! When you constantly say you’re nothing or a mistake, you are speaking that into your life without even realizing it. The thoughts of ending your life all together begins with the mind and people speaking over you. Overall, the devil is who it’s all coming from because just like God, he knows the forces that are within you lying dormant. He knows that if I convince he/she that they’re a product of failure and end it completely. He wins, you eternally lost a battle with Satan you didn’t even realize you were fighting. Never allow people to speak negatively of you, it’s not a “ joke” this is your life. They too can speak into your life as well. If possible, distancing yourself from the crowd is needed. You don’t need all the friends. If life affords you two true friends you have done well. However, at some points in life you may have none. Which is okay, being alone sometimes is part of the journey when you’re on the path to walking with God. It may be lonely, but through the loneliness remind yourself who God said you are, Loved and Worthy!

I challenge everyone reading this to go look in the mirror at yourself, and tell yourself are not a mistake, God doesn’t make mistakes. Man was wrong about you and I’m sorry humanity hurt you, please understand it was never God but rather man being influenced by Satan due the sin in their hearts. Ending your life is not the answer you’re looking for. It’s simply another form of escaping your problems, only with this you can’t go back. Oh newsflash, someone is noticing, don’t think ending it won’t affect anybody because it will. Every choice you make are like rippling waves, it starts with you but it carries on to every person present in your life. Items you use to harm yourself with, I beg you to dispose of them. Feeling the urge, make a phone call, call someone you can trust. Don’t have anyone? Don’t worry love, contact B.U. I’m willing here for you.

To the individuals, who may not be battling with suicide or self-harm. GET EDUCATED! Make it a mission within yourself to do your research to find out the different signs, ticks, or life adjustments, suicidal people use. Become observant, begin to notice the changes in demeanor of your family and friends. Along with questioning and talking to your loved ones, if you notice a difference ask them about. Check in on that individual whether they tell you or not. Tell them you love them through your words and actions. BE THERE! It’s time to end the blind eye, the need for restoration is now.

Mirror Mirror on the wall, who’s the most loved and worthy of them all? YOU.

God Why AM I Here?

The lack of discussion in the Christian Community is leading to so many deaths daily. We have to be there for them. In all seriousness, I hope you release all your burdens to God for He is the one who can make you whole. If you are having suicidal thoughts there is nothing wrong with getting help. Call 1(800)-273-8255 National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is always available in any circumstances. We have the resources, use them.

We are all called to make a difference, so go out and do amazing things!

Who Am I ?

“I once was broken, scared and alone, I was lost and had no home, until my Savior came and changed my way. He renamed me and made me a new array. For when I look into the mirror, I am no longer afraid but Redeemed, Revived, and Re-loved.”

WHAT’S GOOD EVERYONE! New Day. New Opportunities. Once again God has breathed life into our bodies and allowed us to continue on this path we call life. To all my peeps, who are starting their new semester in college or to my younger readers who are still in high school, know that we are praying for you, go out get those degrees/diplomas! We also can’t forget about all the hardworking people grinding everyday to get that MONEY, we are praying for you guys too!

Topic Of The Day: Who Am I? ( Conquering Insecurities)

Ephesians 6:10-14 (NIV)

“10 Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11 Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. 12 For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. 13 Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. 14 Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place,”

Now, I’m going to be really open and transparent with you all on this topic. We all have insecurities about something, whether it’s our body, school, job status, or dealing with relationships with people. The battle of insecurities feels as though you’re trapped in a cell that no one around can get you out of, spirally further down into a deep dark abyss. So, let’s ask ourselves these questions, have I ever felt less-than, have I felt incompetent around people who seem to excel in the desired area I’ve dreamed to soar in, and lastly have I ever looked in the mirror in distaste and confusion trying to figure out what everyone else sees that I have failed to see.”

Just to share a little bit, that last one truly hit home for me. Constantly doubting and beating up myself because I was comparing myself to someone who seemed to have it all. Even after being told and complemented by numerous people that I was enough while having many accomplishments, yet inside my mind in the deepest, darkest parts where it was just me and no ones else I truly didn’t believe anything that was being told to me. I had convinced myself that what was being told to me, was simply people trying to be nice, these individual couldn’t possibly mean it, right? Yet during this time in my life, what I failed to understand was I feeding the insecurities, while trying to fight it all alone without asking any help from God.

So, ask yourself am I unknowingly feeding the enemy? Are we allowing Satan to use false ideas and unwelcoming circumstances to control our lives? In John 10:10 it says, “The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly.” The thief that the Bible is referring to is Satan, he uses theses notions ( insecurities) to destroy what God is trying to build inside of you. The mind is a dangerous place, if you do not allow God to be in control. If we’re being completely real, we become somewhat like actors, burying ourselves inside while on the outside portraying as a person we’re not. The fake techniques we learn such as flashing that “perfect smile”, displaying our bubbly personality, or even encouraging others through their insecurities, only to get behind closed doors and have another emotional break down. We as humans all encounter insecurities, being unsatisfied with how we look, how people view us, or how life circumstances turned out. However, have we ever consider how God views us in Genesis 1:26-27 it states, “26 And God said, Let us make man in our image, after our likeness: and let them have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the fowl of the air, and over the cattle, and over all the earth, and over every creeping thing that creepeth upon the earth. 27 So God created man in his own image, in the image of God created he him; male and female created he them.”

If God viewed any of us less than, He wouldn’t have created us in His image! Yet, He found us worthy the flaws you see in the mirror, God doesn’t see them, while the world sees you undesirable, God thinks otherwise and finds you immaculate. “ God came so that we may have life, and life more abundantly” ( John 10:10). We are every spitting image of God, and He doesn’t make mistakes, meaning you’re not a mistake. The people we think that have it all, are the same individuals battling for sanity on the inside. Yet no one knows, their social media paints this picture that they’re “ living their best life” when in reality their best life is literally just trying to stay alive. Satan has been using insecurities since the beginning of time to bondage people from fulfilling what God has already preordained for our lives. News flash, this was never meant for us, insecurities were never apart of God’s plan for anyone’s life. God would never intentionally make us feel ashamed or less-than about ourselves, Colossians 3:12 tells us to “ Put on therefore, as the elect of God, holy and beloved…” know that you are fearfully and wonderfully made ( Psalm 139:12). In God, we can find worth and reassurance in who we are through Him ( Ephesians 3:12) and remember you are more than capable for the plan He has for you ( Philippians 1:6). So, when you feel yourself beginning to sink back in the sunken place remind yourself how God sees you.

Alright ladies and gents before we conclude let’s have a “Real Talk Moment”. As we search out and find who God say we are, I encourage all of us to use affirmations to instill the promises He speaks over us. When I became a teenager, more insecurities began forming in my life. Now, my dad always seem to know when I was distant or down. Each time he would ask me,“ Who Are You?” Immediately, I knew what that meant and I’m going to tell you the response I had to give him. So let’s do a biblical roleplay for a second, paint the picture, life has been hitting you hard lately and your self worth is depleting, and God comes to ask you, “ Who Are You?” Go to your mirror, look at all the flaws, write down your insecurities and ask yourself, “ Who Am I?” Now tell yourself, “ I AM ( insert your name) and I will walk in integrity and love in Jesus Christ. I will stand against the insecurities for I am not what the devil says I am but what God says I am. I will fight and be what God has for me. I am somebody, I am a child of the most high God, and with His help I will not fall any longer to my insecurities!”

Begin to stand on what you’re telling yourself, words are VERY powerful, what you speak on yourself is what will come forth. Only speak positive affirmations for your spirit, and never allow anyone to speak anything negative over you. Even if they say “ they’re joking”, don’t allow others to have control over your life. Insecurities is a costly endeavor, my friends forget what everybody else is doing, because what God has for them is for them, let’s focus on what God has for YOU!

WHO ARE YOU?

We’re all called to make a difference, so go out and do amazing things.

God Why Am I Alone?

“ Silence, Solitude, and Loniless. Silence in a world full of complete chaos and noise. Yet, you hear nothing, lack of connection, control, ideas, loss of friends, family, and seemingly even God. Our heart is crying out, Where are you God, and why can’t I hear you?”

EVERYBODY STAY CALM, STAY CALM BECASUE GUESS WHAT? We’re ALIVE, and It’s a brand new day and YEAR waiting for you to make your mark on it. So, go look in your mirror and smile at yourself because you’re here for a reason, purposed from God not by chance or coincidence. So, let’s talk!

Series Alert!!! Yes, you read that right, we are starting a series that I believe is a silent killer to some Christians. Our series will be be called…(drum roll please) “ GOD WHY AM I… ?” So let’s get this show on the road.

Part 1: GOD WHY AM I ALONE? ( The Season of loneliness)

Psalms 25:16-18 KJV says,” Turn thee unto me, and have mercy upon me ; For I am desolate and afflicted. The troubles of my heart are enlarged: O bring thou me out of my distress. Look upon mine affliction and my pain; And forgive all my sins.”

“The Season of Silence”

At some point one way or another we all are going to experience this season of loneliness and heartache. This as a true Christian will be a trial that will be placed in your life by God. Here at B.U. transparency is key to sharing any life difficulty. Error from one’s mistakes is meant to be shared for the betterment for all. So here is some “RTK” (REAL TALK)! To be honest with you all, I am currently going through the silent killer or the season of silence right now. The quietness, the distance from everyone all around, the loss of friends, praying to God and not understanding why. While even wondering why can’t I hear anything, questioning God if He’s even listening. The confusion I carry, as I look to Him and wonder why is this happening? God, I thought they were my friends, why have they deserted me? Why are you taking me through this, what are you trying to teach me. Lastly, God I need you right now more than ever, where are you?

Alright timeout, all my purpose chaser come to the sidelines for a second. We need to break something down before we go any further. “The Silent Killer” Now, let’s discuss this and explain why I called the season of silence this reference. The Silent Killer, is the effect of a person being withdrawn from everyone and everything. The lack of connection to life and the deterioration of self worth. The preconception of all hopes is lost and allowing the devil to portray that no one understands. Which leads to spirally depression, causing negative habits such lost of interest and relationships, mental and physical body pain, cutting, anger issues, lack of emotion and suicidal thoughts and extreme cases suicide itself .These oppositions creeping inside you, starting with your thoughts and slowly internally and externally, turning you into a person you never dreamed to become. The Silent Killer.

Now back to reality , being alone is a feeling no one wants to feel, the changes and cold distancing from one’s surrounding you is frankly undesirable. And before my introverts come in and say, “ Oh Zippy, I like being alone, people are annoying. I rather be by myself anyway, hashtag loner. Now, I’m not gonna lie, we can all agree people can get under our skin including ourselves sometimes. Yeah I said it, you’re probably annoying to one of your friends at some time or another. However, you may like being “alone” for peace and quietness but this is a different kind of loneliness. So let’s stop the façade and lets be real for a moment. The loneliness that I’m referring to is, no matter where you turn it feels if no one is there. Here we are praying to God about being in a place of desolation, getting frustrated because you’re serving Him, treating individuals right, constantly taking toxic personalities and spiraling problems from others, while having the right attitude in the midst of it. But yet, as we're crying out to God it feels like God has abandoned us too. Now, at this point each of us are like Joseph in the Bible. In a predicament we didn’t necessarily deserve to be in. Joseph was stripped of his coat of many colors given by his father( Genesis 37:1-4), hated by his brothers who him sold into slavery( Genesis 37:17-28) became a servant for Potipher, who was Pharaoh’s captain of guard in Egypt, and later on was lied on by Potipher’s wife hence throwing Joseph into prison (Genesis 39:1-20). I’m quite positive, Joseph felt loneliness at several points in his life. Yet catch this, Joseph trusted God regardless of what he place he was in. A better question to ask ourselves is are we fully trusting in God, are we walking in the purpose He has for us. As Christians, we may go forth doing miraculous measures for God, but was that what He wanted for you? We are like Joseph, our jobs are uncertain, we didn’t get the raise we deserved. People who were our friends since day one are now acting as though we’re strangers. To top it all off, our family whose supposed to be there for us are the main one’s waiting for our fall.

Yet Joseph understood through it ALL, God was still with him. In Genesis 39:21 it says,” But the LORD was with Joseph, and shewed him mercy, and gave him favor in the sight of the keeper of the prison.” Joseph was in his lowest, but God still showed favor. God saw the faith and hope Joseph had throughout his various tasking trials. The hope allowing Joseph to live on daily. To sum it up, being a Christians isn’t always fun and exciting.

In the Bible, king David speaks on being a king and he says to God, “ You make it HARD to be a king.” At some point in all of your crazy, busy, lives I encourage us all to study out the lives of Joseph , David, and Moses. These three men went through devastations and loneliness yet remained faithful to God. The temptations and various stumbling blocks Satan throws our way, makes it HARD to be a Christian. However, we weren’t promise a walk in the park life. 2 Timothy 3:12 says, “ Yea, and all that will live godly in Christ Jesus shall suffer persecution.” Or better yet, John 15:18 says, “If the world hate you, ye know that it hated me before it hated you.” In today’s terms he said, “ So you want to be a Christian right, you want to love and serve me, being a humble servant and committing to the purpose I destined for you? Okay then, Trust me Me.” If this is our choice, Jesus will love us eternally and help us get through it all, which includes some lonely seasons in our lives. Our world turning upside down, feeling as though we can’t carry on but remembering we have a God who is present.

In the while, there’s a thing called HOPE. I too have hope, as I pursue on day to day while in my silent season. Isaiah 40:31 says, “But they that wait up the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.” The same hope Joseph had lies within us, we simply need to grab it. The hope that allows mankind to surpass through the current lack thereof. The power of hope from God enabling us to wake up everyday to go to work or school while doing it with a spirit of excellence (Romans 15:13). God delights in the ones who place their hope in HIM (Psalm 147:11). These are the individuals who receive favor from God, for they trusted through the uncertain( 2 Corinthians 4:18). God understands, relinquish every hold you have and give it to Him. Fully submerge yourself in Him, trusting Him completely. Cease your worries God is always here, don’t think for a second God doesn’t understand your loneliness. Luke 5:16, talks about how “ He withdrew himself into the wilderness and prayed.” Jesus put himself in solitude, being in an earthly body Jesus received the same temptations and frustrations that we are presented in life. And let’s be real, Jesus didn’t want to leave and be in loneliness, He never desire to be “ all alone” like people claim they want to be so bad. During His time in the wilderness, He was even tempted by the devil by himself (Matthew 4:1-11). As human, we would never purposely put ourselves in insolation the way Jesus did, along with being tempted by the DEVIL, without God in that situation we would have failed tremendously.

I get it, I know it sucks and you wish you can get out of it as of right now. But let me share a little enlightenment your way. SIT IN IT. That’s right, get comfortable, go get a pillow, some popcorn and SIT IN IT.

For the Christians, who haven’t learned to be content with being alone. God is teaching you how to be okay with yourself and the silence from everyone else to hear from Him (James 5:7-8). If you are doing everything God asked that’s great, understand is in this season God is pushing you to grow to a higher level. He is shifting all the negative factors out your life to prune you to be ready for that breakthrough you’ve been looking for. The moment when you’re okay with being alone He will show you. Now, it doesn’t mean you’re coming out of this season instantly, but rather sitting just a little while longer to see if are going trust HIM along with fully weeding away all the unwanted distractions, that will hinder you and potentially ruined everything God built inside of you. Which means the friends, social media followings, extended family, love interest, and that subconscious plan you mapped out for your life, understand that everyone is not going with you to new destination. Most of social media is fake, not all your family members are going to be supportive, your love interest if truly interested in you will understand they come second after God. Lastly, that life list that you made up in your head, go ahead and tear it up homie because that list means absolutely nothing if there’s no sign, sealed, delivered consent on it from God. The ones who are willing to wait, are the ones who are rewarded. He knows, He understands, He’s there, He hears your cries, simply trust in Him have HOPE. Moses: the meekest man on earth, David: A man after God’s own heart, Joseph: trusting God when life went every way but his way. Three men, three traumatic experiences, three lives filled with seasons of loneliness, three men trusting in God, three men having hope, three men outstandingly recognized by God. This is only three men, imagine all the people that have come, gone, living now, and ones to come who are like these three men, oh what an impact for the Gospel it would cause. We all experience it but how will we handle it? Hebrews 13:5 “ I will never leave you nor forsake you.”

Simply some thoughts to consider when you’re in this season and asking Him, “ God Why Am I Alone?”

We’re called to make a difference, so go out and do amazing things.

Simply B.U.